So, I'm back, doing another journal. After years of inactivity on this site. Yep, I'm a terrible person. A bad, bad person. In fact, holy shit, the last time I wrote a journal on here was when the fourth Twilight came out. Oooops, that's a long ass time.

So, finished finals. Almost died. Several times. I'll spare you some of the more boring details. I pulled I don't even know how many all-nighters. I slept on a table using paper curls off of some of my prints as a pillow. It's on Facebook because my printmaking buddies thought it was cute. Slept on the floor several times (I did have a pillow and some blankies thanks to a friend who does the same thing a lot). Went three days without sleep in a row. Forgot to eat once or twice. Took a break laying on the figure model stand and then listened to a story about how several graduates had had sex on the very same stand. Watched videos of turtles and cats having sex with friends in the printmaking room (turtles have scary ass penises and cats have barbed penises. Who knew?). Discussed purchasing a vibrator with a friend in the printmaking room. Might have contemplated suicide once or twice.

I still somehow love fine arts, though I kinda hate it, too. We totally have an S and M thing for each other.

But that's over, I can kinda breathe for a second. I'm actually currently using this journal entry to avoid working on illustrating a kids book. I really want to illustrate this book, but don't don't want to at the same time somehow. It's weird. I'm probably gonna lose the job anyways because I take forever to get anything done, but I'm still a dirty procrastinator.

I'm actually gonna put some stuff up on here, though! I'm gonna upload some shots of a sculpture, some shots of some prints and process stuff, and some writing.

Actually, a shit ton of writing. I've been in the writing mood lately. This has been the only way I've been able to continue work on ESC, because honestly I don't really want to work on it at the end of a long day of other art. I'm sort of moving away from the anime format, anyway. I still would like to work within a comic format for the series, but I want to move more in a caricature and more heavily stylized cartoon direction. After all, I am a trained and still operating caricature artist. It really started to make more sense when my professor's main complaint in my figure drawing class was that I exaggerated things too much. I was like "Huh, I wonder why? Could it be that I've been trained and forced to do so for two years now?". It was really freaking annoying, regardless. But I feel like ESC needs to move more in this direction to be much more visually appealing and for the art to mesh better with the story. The story is fantastic in nature (it takes place within a freakin video game) and fits this sort of visual storytelling style SO much better. Aaaaannnd... anime's just not my thing. I liked the crap out of it when I began ESC, and I'm still pretty cool with it. Give me a really good example of it, and I'll geek out with everyone else. But at the same time, I absolutely love most of the new western animation to come out. Like Rise of the Guardians or Paranorman. There's this whole exaggeration of real life that both films capture that blows my mind as a caricature artist. Especially Paranorman. The characters don't just look a certain way; the way they look comments on who they are, or on their role in the story or in society. Or another example is the beautiful animation Motorcity. Oh my god, the difference in face shapes alone defies belief.

But basically, this is more the route I wish to follow with my cartoon work in the future. It seems more exciting and hopeful. At the same time, Fine Arts is my major. I feel this is the area of work that actually comes more naturally for me and challenges my mind the most. I'm also considering switching my drawing concentration to a sculpture concentration currently. I've had a lot of encouragement in this field in my first three semesters in college, though coming in I thought I had next to no talent in the area. Now I have a 3D professor requesting I return my work for the department's accreditation review. It's been a weird semester. If I switch, I'll be concentrated in Printmaking and Sculpture instead of my original Drawing and Painting. College changes shit.

But yeah, that's my life art-wise right now. I might try to orchestrate a sketch dump for the next few days also. Those things are a pain in the ass to put together, but I do need to document some of my sketches, I guess (thank god some of them are digital ugh).  I'm gonna try to document some fine arts work once I get back to school in January. I didn't have time in the exam madness. I had figure drawing this semester, so prepare for naked drawings! YAY!

Okay, finally done with the long journal from hell. Sorry for the long absence, as always. I'm just not as concerned with my online presence as I used to be. I'm sorry for that, but the real world just does shit to you. Sometimes at the end of the day, all you want to use the internet for is stupid crap so you don't have to think anymore. And right now I really can't afford an online presence too much because I'm not really looking for commission work. I don't even have the time or energy to do the work I'm practically handed haha. There's not much point in looking for work or extra attention online :/